Diary of a Single Mother: Some questions I may not answer…as yet??

Diary of a Single Mother: Some questions I may not answer…as yet??: Schools close and I am excited just like any other parent to have my son at home, knowing the kind of schedule I have normally, this is a ti...

Diary of a Single Mother: Another one of those days....

Diary of a Single Mother: Another one of those days....: My son does not stay with me, typically because I travel a lot and it may not be very ideal to leave him in the house alone or in the care o...

Little dramas....

Sometimes one just to get naughty and that is exactly what I have been feeling like of late. Trying to get myself in between my books and my social life has been the worst case scenario, its like trying to squeeze water out of a stone! Let me give you some crazy scenario minus that one of squeezing water out of a stone...

1. You have assignments and want to just rest a bit so that you can wake up fresh to embark on the due diligence, instead when you close your eyes, all you can see are those assignment needless to say, they are not like a lullaby but a nightmare! You cant sleep, yet your eyes are begging to you to take a rest...so what do to?

2. You plan the week so well, such that you even know quite well what you will be doing and at what time, what happens, what happens, you end up doing the complete opposite, well, still end up doing what you intended to do, but in the reverse manner and why? Take for example the assignments, say they are to be handed in next week and because you pissed off the lecturer, he decided that next week is like a century away and needed the assignment like tomorrow morning, the same morning you are to hand in another one which of course, Kenyan style, is being done, last minute rush. Take into account, you had 4 weeks to complete it and kept postponing it...yes, postponing is the word I have used. Postponing is a word that can bring disaster, in such cases as that stated above! That is when, the sleep decides to come, when you don't need it, you even try the coffee move and the feet-in-cold-water basin stride which all seemingly are failing you...What to do?

3.You want to go out and have a bunch of deadline, the opportunity cost of going out vis-a-vis finishing what really brought you into that position you are in.....what to do? I tell you my brother, that has been me the past few weeks...and I forgot, despite having a one week break during the election period, you not only benefit from sleepless nights like you were also vying but also the rising pressure that was building then...what happened, only a few chapters read, instead of the many that were targeted....what to do?

But I have learnt that despite all these, one has to set ultimatum otherwise you become disillusioned and confused, like I see in some during the kind of stage I have reached, I was alerted that by now I should have unkempt hair...well, at least mine is neat so I know am sane, sane enough to at least finish this blog, not sure if it makes sense though but am glad I wrote it anyway...it has released some tensions that I had built over the past few weeks...and by the way, when I started out writing, I had no intentions of writing what I wrote, I had a clearly laid down structure, of what I will write about, which topic...but no, that did not happen!

But all in all, perhaps one day I will write and share with you what I was to write today, if it will come just as spontaneously as what I did today....trust me its juicy stuff, only perhaps my head was not so sure if it is the right time to share it......

Unwinding.....

Aha! At last semester one is over! I have a slight headache over kesho's beginning of semester and what for? I just saw the timetable over the weekend and this is after an exam...I haven't even taken a rest...but wait havent I also been watching movies? Now I am seeing the reason why the headache is there...na sikukunywa chai asubuhi! Aiii blame it on my lunje roots, I will seek further instructions before I sleep later today on how to keep it away...though I have literally taken care of the tea issue plus now, I am no longer watching telly and have resorted to listening to music instead for the rest of this week till Thursday! I have heard 1001 stories and theories...anyway that is a story for another day...back to my headache. Yes, I am currently typing away with one so do not blame me for any typos I may make. Today, I decided I will just type, type whatever comes to mind since I want to release my tension, my fears perhaps...fear of....I don't know what but yes just one of those days. Maybe its the reason for my headache...okay I am so trying to get to the root of it all, but it seems not to be working. Period of unwinding, I am chatting with a friend right now who happens to be making my evening, and trust me my headache is kinda reducing because of all the laughing, perhaps I needed to laugh a bit...am now wondering kwani I haven't laughed today? Or maybe I haven't? Today am blank....never have been...maybe tomorrow I will have energy to write the theories as for now, let me nurse my now sightly reduced headache...I need some milk and then sleep...no let me do hot chocolate..then I will be good to sleep over the headache and wake up head clear for econometrics! Yes, I have 4 hours of econometrics tomorrow. Now come to think of it, this headache started when I went through the timetable.....let me then sleep so I can relax for tomorrow's class but trust me I will give you some interesting stuff that went down...from this guy who speaks great English and claims to be illiterate? What is the meaning of illiterate again? To one who drank his favorite drink, "mala" or fermented milk...wah! This one made my Friday...but let me keep this till tomorrow....yes tomorrow, I will let be back to my normal self and will be writing things that make a lot of sense. I just hope I wont regret, tomorrow, when reading through this one that I am just about to finish....eish blame the headache!!! Which now by the way, is gone, gone, gone...I can see some light at the end of the tunnel...goodnight peeps!

God sent me an angel today......

Diary of a Single Mother: God sent me an angel today......: Today was a slow day for me, despite waking up early to somewhat trigger the feeling that its the start of the week. I still stayed on my co...

God sent me an angel today......

Today was a slow day for me, despite waking up early to somewhat trigger the feeling that its the start of the week. I still stayed on my couch lazing about figuring out why I should really wake up! Its a weekend, plus the previous day I had a very full-filling day. The full part being I had put my all into my books and was speaking gibberish mathematical economics by the the time it was 2200 hours. I tried watching a movie which I quarter way dozzed off. That is how badly am doing in terms of watching movies. Two times this week, I have tried to watch a movie that did not even go past 30 minutes and I was already asleep. I was beginning to think that either the movies were just boring or...I was just tired. But noooo, it was not the fatigue, fatigue or not I still watch movies, so I have concluded that the movies I have tried to watch this week are boring. Not to mention titles were Flight and Skyfall. Stop laughing, I know what youre thinking, that I was just tired and I dozzed off! Okay, let me admit, I have somewhat managed to clear those two off my list and now struggling with Loopers, I cant even remember how it started! I have another story of which I have to write about...but I will save it for another date and time, this one is special and deserves all the attention! Anyway, yeah,my morning was lazy, having have slept in my full days outfit, that enough can tell you how it must have been. I finally woke up, not because I wanted but "my"cleaning lady had arrived and this one I had no choice but to wake up anyway. I put my in quotes because she was just referred by a friend after a disappointing trying to get one! Do you know how agonizing it can be to keep telling someone to do A, then B then C...? I have only been here a month but being a new year and a new month, I finally decided to try out the one who was referred! God must have known what I needed as she is good I tell you, I did not have to mention to her what to do! Now this is what you call someone who wants to work! She cleaned everything and am sure it is just by luck that she could not clean me! All in all, I must say she gave me the energy to wake up and actually sit and as I watched her do her work, with a smile on her face and her little girl seated next to me. I said a little prayer for her, for Hod to give her the energy to be able to meet the needs to her daughter. She has a clean heart...and for that I called my friend and thanked her! Without her, I would not have her! Lets see how far we can take each other...but the little time I spent with her today just seeing what she is doing, I would say she is an Angel sent from above...they say Angels live in heaven and have wings, this one, God sent her on earth to sort out people like me...and for that am all smiles and thanking God!

Diary of a Single Mother: Re-construction time....

Diary of a Single Mother: Re-construction time....: Well, many months have passed...and yes I admit I have not been one of the best in terms of keeping up with this blog. I have tried, at time...