Drama is.....

Drama unfolds, but this one is more than drama. Not sure if it should have a different name from the drama. Lets just says, 2013 has flown....literary...its already September just the other day we were talking Christmas and arguing with my son on whether or not I should buy him clothes. Well don't give me that look, sometimes you cant just buy clothes because its Christmas, for him, every other day is Christmas, I buy him clothes so buying new ones last Christmas was a thing to discuss? Well maybe not.... But anyway, back to the drama or something of the sort,drama is when things happen unexpectedly, like the year 2013 reaching September without my knowledge? Is it that I have been too busy with my latest addiction till I forgot the dates? Okay I must admit, I have been home only 3 times this year, meaning I only got to see very little of my son. Okay and the few times he has come to my school. I must admit, cell phones have made life easier and I get to talk to him everyday or let me call it almost everyday. Drama is when your son calls you a month after you replaced his wardrobe to tell you that he needs new clothes since he has sort of added weight. Yes, I feel like I have gone back to that age when he was between 1-3 years when I could buy clothes and shoes every 3 months....this is what has become the conversation during the phone calls, shoes and clothes and description of which type of clothes and shoes are needed. Uhhm! He is about to enter his teenage, so am expected to know the fashion trends and be able to keep up so as not to buy clothes that he may never wear...now that is drama if you combine it with books.... Drama is trying to read,when you have a test tomorrow, and trying to be busy typing away, okay I have read and I needed a break so why not type it away? I love blogging or perhaps just typing stuff, it reduces my dramas a bit....trims them to an unacceptable level, a level I can manage....... Drama is trying to convince someone to juggle between watching TV ( 3 channels at the same time), typing and chatting...that is exactly what I am being subjected to at this particular moment. I am about to send a protest letter to the TV stations to avoid collusion of time with my favorite programs...how can I give up Churchill, a great comedy show for TPF6 another great form of entertainment the equivalent of American idol? Like really and Arsenal is playing? Plus I need to finish my test revision and still do one document review? Now that is a bigger drama....calculating....Prioritization? Key word...but what comes first in this case? A bit confusing!! Drama is just about to end this typing session because I have discovered, after a lot of soul searching, that it may not be so much my priority area right now...ooops! Cheers later...gotta run!

Diary of a Single Mother: Trying my level best...

Diary of a Single Mother: Trying my level best...: The few couple of times I have tried dating have been a disaster, either the guy has a problem with my kind of life style or I have a proble...

Trying my level best...

The few couple of times I have tried dating have been a disaster, either the guy has a problem with my kind of life style or I have a problem with his! And in most cases, I have had a lot of issues with their kind of lifestyle. Some things you can put up with but some, even if the heaven's came down is a NO-GO-ZONE. Being a single mum, is not easy, now when you want all my time,making it impossible for me to spend some time with my boy, then that is a problem right there. I am not saying its wrong to crave attention, no, its just wrong to try and get all the attention to yourself. Get it in your head, I have a son, time has to be divided, and when it comes to my son, he sort of becomes my priority. Call me a stubborn, big headed woman, I will accept the titles for now, but again I emphasize, there is no discussing time when it comes to my son, he will always come first. Anyway, that aside, back to the dating scene, I tried, and the last has just hit rock bottom and am beginning to think, perhaps am not just cut out for a relationship...no am not. I mean, who would want to have a woman who is never at home, cooks when they feel like, goes for what she believes in and last but not least speaks her mind. I have tried I tell you, even trying to ACT like the normal traditional African woman but, it just doesnt seem to be working noooo...its not! What to do? What to do?

1. Spend time with my son ( like I have always)

2.Live my life ( oh I ALWAYS will do!)

3. Go on dates ( like the Bachelorate- trust me I have no intentions of turning down any dates from now hence forth, I will go on all- of course if my schedule allows-lol- THIS IS NEW!!!)

4.Try out a new style of dressing- read decent not SLUTTY ( THIS IS NEW!!! As I always have that simple look, I am gonna add a little bit of oomph!to it!)

5. Scrutinize every tiny little details presented to me by any male individual ( I had stopped, now it will be back) Okay, easier written than done, let me be realistic. Why would I even go to extreme lengths to do all the above? Okay at least spending time with my son is great, that I will always put on top of my list.

But honestly, would I change my lifestyle just because? That is where most of us go wrong! Just today I was chatting with a friend of mine and I was honest enough to point out that I was dumped, and the reason I was dumped is because my now ex was seeing someone else? She was in shock! Trying to state that its just wrong for a guy to state that he is seeing someone else. But really, this is like what I have always thought it to be. I would term it as honesty, this is way better than finding out one day that he is seeing someone else and pretending to be dating me at the same time...that would kill me. But being told so, makes you feel free, light and ready to move on ( well I deleted his number and any contact that I could find so I can clearly move on) But still it makes one really know that the other party is no longer interested! Period! Its never easy to let go of what you knew so well, what you had put your efforts in but one thing is for sure, it was not for nothing, as a matter of fact it makes you a better person and above all, my policy statement, if he dumps you, its his loss not yours as you are worth much more!

As I am still thinking of how am not cut out for a relationship...other thoughts also pour in, perhaps am just too good and should stop being Miss Too Good and be a bad girl for once...( grinning) No I would have to change my whole outlook if I took up that role...so I just going to be me.....moving on to greater heights where I know it will only get tougher but I am already tough....as I am trying my level best :-)

Diary of a Single Mother: Some questions I may not answer…as yet??

Diary of a Single Mother: Some questions I may not answer…as yet??: Schools close and I am excited just like any other parent to have my son at home, knowing the kind of schedule I have normally, this is a ti...

Diary of a Single Mother: Another one of those days....

Diary of a Single Mother: Another one of those days....: My son does not stay with me, typically because I travel a lot and it may not be very ideal to leave him in the house alone or in the care o...

Little dramas....

Sometimes one just to get naughty and that is exactly what I have been feeling like of late. Trying to get myself in between my books and my social life has been the worst case scenario, its like trying to squeeze water out of a stone! Let me give you some crazy scenario minus that one of squeezing water out of a stone...

1. You have assignments and want to just rest a bit so that you can wake up fresh to embark on the due diligence, instead when you close your eyes, all you can see are those assignment needless to say, they are not like a lullaby but a nightmare! You cant sleep, yet your eyes are begging to you to take a rest...so what do to?

2. You plan the week so well, such that you even know quite well what you will be doing and at what time, what happens, what happens, you end up doing the complete opposite, well, still end up doing what you intended to do, but in the reverse manner and why? Take for example the assignments, say they are to be handed in next week and because you pissed off the lecturer, he decided that next week is like a century away and needed the assignment like tomorrow morning, the same morning you are to hand in another one which of course, Kenyan style, is being done, last minute rush. Take into account, you had 4 weeks to complete it and kept postponing it...yes, postponing is the word I have used. Postponing is a word that can bring disaster, in such cases as that stated above! That is when, the sleep decides to come, when you don't need it, you even try the coffee move and the feet-in-cold-water basin stride which all seemingly are failing you...What to do?

3.You want to go out and have a bunch of deadline, the opportunity cost of going out vis-a-vis finishing what really brought you into that position you are in.....what to do? I tell you my brother, that has been me the past few weeks...and I forgot, despite having a one week break during the election period, you not only benefit from sleepless nights like you were also vying but also the rising pressure that was building then...what happened, only a few chapters read, instead of the many that were targeted....what to do?

But I have learnt that despite all these, one has to set ultimatum otherwise you become disillusioned and confused, like I see in some during the kind of stage I have reached, I was alerted that by now I should have unkempt hair...well, at least mine is neat so I know am sane, sane enough to at least finish this blog, not sure if it makes sense though but am glad I wrote it anyway...it has released some tensions that I had built over the past few weeks...and by the way, when I started out writing, I had no intentions of writing what I wrote, I had a clearly laid down structure, of what I will write about, which topic...but no, that did not happen!

But all in all, perhaps one day I will write and share with you what I was to write today, if it will come just as spontaneously as what I did today....trust me its juicy stuff, only perhaps my head was not so sure if it is the right time to share it......

Unwinding.....

Aha! At last semester one is over! I have a slight headache over kesho's beginning of semester and what for? I just saw the timetable over the weekend and this is after an exam...I haven't even taken a rest...but wait havent I also been watching movies? Now I am seeing the reason why the headache is there...na sikukunywa chai asubuhi! Aiii blame it on my lunje roots, I will seek further instructions before I sleep later today on how to keep it away...though I have literally taken care of the tea issue plus now, I am no longer watching telly and have resorted to listening to music instead for the rest of this week till Thursday! I have heard 1001 stories and theories...anyway that is a story for another day...back to my headache. Yes, I am currently typing away with one so do not blame me for any typos I may make. Today, I decided I will just type, type whatever comes to mind since I want to release my tension, my fears perhaps...fear of....I don't know what but yes just one of those days. Maybe its the reason for my headache...okay I am so trying to get to the root of it all, but it seems not to be working. Period of unwinding, I am chatting with a friend right now who happens to be making my evening, and trust me my headache is kinda reducing because of all the laughing, perhaps I needed to laugh a bit...am now wondering kwani I haven't laughed today? Or maybe I haven't? Today am blank....never have been...maybe tomorrow I will have energy to write the theories as for now, let me nurse my now sightly reduced headache...I need some milk and then sleep...no let me do hot chocolate..then I will be good to sleep over the headache and wake up head clear for econometrics! Yes, I have 4 hours of econometrics tomorrow. Now come to think of it, this headache started when I went through the timetable.....let me then sleep so I can relax for tomorrow's class but trust me I will give you some interesting stuff that went down...from this guy who speaks great English and claims to be illiterate? What is the meaning of illiterate again? To one who drank his favorite drink, "mala" or fermented milk...wah! This one made my Friday...but let me keep this till tomorrow....yes tomorrow, I will let be back to my normal self and will be writing things that make a lot of sense. I just hope I wont regret, tomorrow, when reading through this one that I am just about to finish....eish blame the headache!!! Which now by the way, is gone, gone, gone...I can see some light at the end of the tunnel...goodnight peeps!